When I Cry

Never judge from a single moment

Never judge from a single moment

Know that when I cry I am not ashamed. Not ashamed of the tears running down my face, the growing redness of my eyes, and my inability to breathe consistently. That as you judge me I’m still working and thinking.

Know that when I cry, it is not negative. It is not bad or sad or weak that I cry. That tears are natural and beautiful just like a smile or that twinkle in my eye.
Know that when I cry it is not about you. It is not about the words you’ve said or the things you did. That whatever you think you did to target me, to make me cry, is not true.
Know that when I cry it is always for me, by me, in me. You did not break my heart, I did for believing and trusting you. You did not defeat me, I did. You did not hurt me, I did. You can say that I don’t have that control. And I don’t, but neither do you.
Know that when I cry I am strong. I am as strong as when I laugh or when I shout. I am always fighting, whether it is through tears and gritted teeth or with a smirk on my face.
Know that when I cry I appreciate everything that you do. Whether it is a hug or a gentle words, know that every bit helps but also know that whatever it is I will fight, I will work through it, and I will ask for help.
I will change, for better or worse, and I will cry. Just like I will smile, shout and laugh. I will cry and I am proud of it.
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FDOC Spring 2014


Seaside Cliff

Gorgeous cliff and sea in Tulum, Mexico. Photograph by Wynton Wong, 2013.

It is the first day of classes at Carolina in the spring semester of my junior year and I’m still at home working (no class till 5pm) being two blog posts behind (I’ll catch up I promise.)

I miss Mexico…


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Tulum Performers

Tulum Performers  by wwingwong
Tulum Performers , a photo by wwingwong on Flickr.

Via Flickr:
After a performing a ceremonial dance, two performers take a break from the sun. Mexico Winter ’13

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